Essays on the noise of existence, being a dad, grief, addiction, and recovery.
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Most of my writing is about something I’ve lived through or experienced, but some of it is just my opinion. While I write mainly for myself, I always like your feedback so please leave a comment if you would like. If you’re new here, these five essays are a place to begin. ~ Ryan
- Why I’m Here — Why these stories exist, and who I’m leaving them for.
- Experience — Grief, finding a voice, and sharing what I’ve lived through.
- Body & Mind — Getting sober was only part of learning how to live.
- This is Church — Faith, heavy metal, and finding somewhere to belong.
- Hail to the King — A father, a son, and the music between them.
The Latest
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Owning Both
From jail cells to boardrooms, poverty to wealth, and failure to success. A personal reflection on identity, belonging, and owning both worlds.
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Perspective
Maybe instead of abandoning you, they stepped back to give you the space you need to become who they know…
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Scars
Scars create ridges, ridges that look like mountains depending on your perspective. Once you’re standing on top of the ridge,…
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The Paradigm
I sit in parks, watching my kids play and texting people who never text back. I’m dying on the inside,…
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The Beginning of the End
Hope must die, but it must die of natural causes. You can’t speed this process along. When the silence becomes…
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Deconstruction
I wear my losses like an ex-lovers t-shirt. I want to breathe in deeply and feel the memory next to…
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The Aftermath of the Storm
It’s quiet, my house is empty, and I’m examining the remains—surveying the damage from a storm I never saw coming.…
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Time
There is a principle that states: “Do not let the sun go down on your anger.” Alcoholics Anonymous has a…
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Muse
It’s springtime, or maybe it’s summer; only a calendar could clear the confusion. I’m sitting on my front porch, drinking…
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You Cannot Build on Ashes
Sometimes I just need to write, and I do not know why. I have an insatiable desire to create, but…
Where to go from here
- Start here: five essays to begin with
- Read the AA: A Cult of Personality series
- Explore the blog archive
- Get in touch
-Ryan
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