Essays on the noise of existence, being a dad, grief, addiction, and recovery.
New here? Start here.
Most of my writing is about something I’ve lived through or experienced, but some of it is just my opinion. While I write mainly for myself, I always like your feedback so please leave a comment if you would like. If you’re new here, these five essays are a place to begin. ~ Ryan
- Why I’m Here — Why these stories exist, and who I’m leaving them for.
- Experience — Grief, finding a voice, and sharing what I’ve lived through.
- Body & Mind — Getting sober was only part of learning how to live.
- This is Church — Faith, heavy metal, and finding somewhere to belong.
- Hail to the King — A father, a son, and the music between them.
The Latest
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Owning Both
From jail cells to boardrooms, poverty to wealth, and failure to success. A personal reflection on identity, belonging, and owning both worlds.
Recent Posts
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My Scale and I Are Seeing Other People
I have not broken up with my scale. I’ve just realized we may not be right for each other at…
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Legacy
I don’t know if history will see me as a success, a failure, or if I’ll be remembered at all.…
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AA: A Cult of Personality Part 2
You did not have to speculate about Bobby or wait to hear his voice to know he was a smoker.…
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AA: A Cult of Personality Part 1
This is a new approach for me. I’ve felt the need to cover this topic for a long time now…
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The Gift of Silence
I spend a lot of time writing and even more thinking about writing. This is not a new phase in…
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Body & Mind
When I first got sober in February 2018, I was 120 lbs overweight. I dropped most of that weight in…
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Has the internet made the world a better place?
The short answer – I don’t know. So, let’s look at what I think I know. I’m a network engineer.…
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Lifeless and Boring
Vapid… now there’s a word with teeth. And that’s what I like—something that bites, something that cuts you in all…
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The Inmate
31 years, 10 months, 16 days. 11,643 days total, but who’s counting? My jailers have been good to me in…
Where to go from here
- Start here: five essays to begin with
- Read the AA: A Cult of Personality series
- Explore the blog archive
- Get in touch
-Ryan
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